Saturday again...

What do you do to spend your Saturday night? Well, thanks for asking, I'm writing. For my blogs, as I have two blogs. This one and the other in yahoo360. To put another article in helium. And adding someting new in a community blog, and translating new article in the organization's website. The NGO I worked in.Walhi Kalsel.

Loads of activity. But that's not all. I still need to fill in my journal, to make plan and action plan of a new project I'd conduct with Bang Viky. I and him are planning to have our small voluntary service, consulting and facilitating people to deal better with the world in their own way.

We're still look for the formula to share that value, but one thing we both are learning now is from Covey's the 8th habit. And this morning I've contacted a life coach from Malaysia, Mohd Rizal H.,to ask for his advice from his experience as a nationwide facilitator.

hope things run well tonight. And I've got the electricity. Cos recently in my town, the elctricity on and off se-enak udelnya!!

My NGO life

Sit in front of the office laptop, escape from the translating project for a few minutes now. Working extra-hour to translate the proposal for IUCN puts me in another extra-hour working in the office. Due date soon, and my organization trust me to execute the Indonesian proposal into English.

What makes it hard for me is I don't really understand the context of the project. I've never involved in the preliminary discussion regarding this proposal. Yeah, I do know a bit about sebatung Mountains from my easy-chat with the former campaigner of WalhiKalsel, Deddy Ratih. I do know the importance of act immediately to conserve the last forests of Sebatung Mountains. But it's not enough from keeping me asking and asking about incomplete information in the Bahasa Indonesia draft I held now. The proposal draft still miss important things. Wait tomorrow, see if it gets better as tonight the project people meets again while I'm here translating <ups..blogging, hehe...>

Well, doing several stuffs at once. Today would be great day for me. Having my other blog in Yahoo360 a mother language blog, as I'm really stunned with the article in the local newspaper telling that so many mother language had banished!! So, I just try to do what I can. Conserving the language I know. Finishing the translation and facing tomorrow with a ready to be sent to a local newspaper article coomenting the new plan of another palm plantation in my province....

Enough now. Few minutes ago I visited my blog. changing the "face" again. Don't like the dull white background...  This one posted through e-mail though. Testing the link, hope they work in the blog.

Back to work, still many things to be done tonight.
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Trying to post from my e mail..Thanks Bang Man!! :)

No more blogging at the office...Using the office's account. The announcement just issued in my office a few minutes ago infer such thing. Only use the internet for emailing. Means I would have to go to internet cafe to post my entries this several days. But it is said that the policy would not be for good, only up to the end of the month.

Lets see how I can cope with it. I can post through e-mail, can't I? :P

But, anybody knows how?

Sedang baca..(something) is a way to say one is reading..(something) in Bahasa Indonesia. Yes, I'm in progress reading a "heavy" book at present. The book is not too heavy though, only 310 pages. But the discussion in the book is heavy, written by Hikmat Budiman. The title is Lubang Hitam Kebudayaan, or The Black Hole of Culture. The small fonts and the plain layout of the book often makes me sleepy. But, I find the author's narrative quite interesting. So, I mustn't give up! I must finished reading this book before Ambo--my "junior" in Kompas Borneo and the borrower of the book from his campus's library--came back from his hiking trip.

After this, I'd reward myself a huge bundle of Naruto manga :). I've found out exactly where to find and borrow them, nearby my ex-high school!!

I've just apply for adsense, not yet approved though...It is said I have to wait several days before knowing whether my blog would have ads or not.

Actually I've seen blogs with the adsense, but doesn't really get the idea putting the ads in the personal blog especially like mine. I've tried to create traffic but so far doesn't really work

Today, I found a new term -severe loneliness- as I watched the Rugrats. I've seen Rugrats several times, as I have a younger brother a fan of Nick's cartoons. And what is interesting about Rugrats is sometimes the babies--main characters--talk or involved in exploring a "heavy" issue. Like this episode I've just watched, in which I found severe loneliness. I didn't notice the title of the episode and I didn't watch the full episode of the cartoon either.

But somehow the clips of the cartoon I happen to watch makes me think over the term again, and makes me curious to find out what it really is. As far as I can connect from the cartoon, severe loneliness is a state of mental condition in which a person choose to be alone and enjoy loneliness because the person is totally engaged with loneliness for some reason. It can be worrying for some reason, and at certain level it may cause some deviated behaviors.

In the context of the cartoon, the term arise as Chucky's father misunderstood little Tommy's behavior. He translated Tommy's action to look for a missing ball in a bush as the the way Tommy purposely do, to express his severe loneliness and avoiding the crowd of other babies. He thought so because little Tommy is left with him as his parents went on a wedding anniversary holiday. In fact, due to his over-expressed attention to Tommy made his own son feel abandoned and Chucky begun to be a trouble maker. (I think, instead of Tommy it is Chucky who gets the severe loneliness)

As I googling to find out more about the term, I find an entry connecting severe loneliness with one's addiction to pain either physical or emotional that he/she can not give it up. I then trying to make sense of the entry with my own experience.

To me it makes sense that sometimes what is really meaningful in my life is the pain I endured. But then it makes me think, do I feel the severe loneliness today? As I have no date? I don't think so. At least though I do feel lonely, I have a positive thing to do to fill out the day fully. Working, socializing--I've dinner together with three friends--, chatting on the internet, writing this post, and within several minutes going to bed...

Happy Valentine's Day everyone. Unfortunately, I'm not part of the people celebrating the day, coz I join those who say express your love any time of the day since you never know whether the next day you still breath or not...

Lesson of life

I found a blog titled My Journey to Recovery that makes me interested at once. A blog by Noor Azman Othman GBE from Kuala Kangsar, Perak, Malaysia. I mean really interested, in positive sense. First I like his blog's display, wanna learn that kinda blogging. He looks like a master blogging to me....

Above the shining blog he has, I also like things he writes in his blog. Feels like I know him well before. As I can read the stories I've heard before. A story told by my Rangga--thats the way I called him long ago--. This Rangga is someone in my past who still lingers, even today.

Several times, Rangga told me his story as a "putau" (Indonesian term for low quality heroin) addict. And reading the blog, refresh my memory. Rangga recovers, but he suffers very much as now he has this deadly virus caused by sharing needles among his peers, the IDUs. Not only that, he is now counting down the days as the oppotunistic infection getting stronger attacking his vulnerable health.

Rangga stepped aside from my life, but I do the contrary. Keep in touch with him is a very important thing for me. And up to this moment, I kept being selfish for always hangin' around his days. He teaches me one great lesson in life, from him I know life is a treasure.

Following the journey of Noor Azman Othman, lits a light in my heart. A light I really hope to share with Rangga.

B' Jumping ala KBU

Blogging again. It's been quite long since I post my last story. Been busy these days :)

Actually it is a story happened about a week ago. My friends in Kompas Borneo Unlam went on a bungee jumping. Not an ordinary bungee jumping though, because there's no such entertainment here in South Kalimantan. They do a bungee version of their own. Jump down from a point in Jembatan Barito, tied to a dynamic kernmantel and swinging/hanging down the bridge and climb the kernmantel using the classic prusiking technique. Hope I make it clear.

Well, the bungee seems to be a great thing for the sake of adventure and really worked to raise adrenaline. I'm just a spectator but I feel my heart beats faster as I see one of my friend, Jaksa jumped down the bridge.

He survive, safe, and go up the bridge in one piece. Fyuuh... I'm relieve and interested to try the bungee jumping ala Kompas Borneo Unlam...